Date : Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Time : 10:15 PM
Title :

this post was written on tues night. but I'm alright now.. everytthing's alright (: You know what ? I'm even more exhausted then you guys. I told myself I've got to put up a strong front in front of you guys, and realise I couldn't do so. keeping mum , acting emo is not my way of handling things. I'm a human being, I have my own feelings. I cry , I laugh . I'm not blind to everything. And believe me, I've never neglected any single one of you guys. I tried my very best to make you guys laugh, smile. Cause seeing you guys being happy gives me comfort. I'm not joking, really serious. And here's my ques : Do you really know me well? I doubt. You guys see me as a happy-go-lucky person right? Mind you, I'm not. And to my dear friend : I've never neglected you. I did not ps you. I always tried to make you happy. You know what? I'm sick of making you happy. cause I really can't figure out when you'll be laughing and the other moment, you'll reveal another side of you. I've always been your listener. You shared your problems with me. Thank-you. Thank-you for sharing your problems with me. I know you regard me as your friend. Same here, we've always treated you as our friend. a close one. But you've abused it. We are not substitutes. We are not just here for you to share your sorrows. And the other moment, you'll be with them. We are the ones sharing your sorrows, they are the ones sharing your joy? Think back, (i'm not bearing any grudges but that week will foreva be in my mind) It was that one week you really left me. Did you know how lonely I was? I'm not someone whom you'll say: Not meeting you tmr. And trust me, that phrase appeared many times in your smses. For the whole year, you've like not left me alone for that long?! Just because of him, you did that. That simply shows how much our friendship meant to you. Never would I come to this day when friends no longer mean to me. I was serious then, you thought I was just saying about it. Trivial matters like this says it all , girl. Every morning, I was wishing you could be at the station, waiting for us. Sorry, I gave up. I knew you had your friends to go with. Perhaps, they are the ones whom will share your laughters and tears with. To provide a listening ear to you too. && we realised you were speechless then but we didn't want to ask cause we knew you weren't in the mood of talking. sorry that we've not realised that you shed tears. sorry.... sorry... I would like you to know, we've always been there , but it's just that you've never realised our presence. & we've never hated you. NEVER!

I've wrote it, at this moment, written all my thoughts down.

Hate it or like it, it's my thoughts :D

No offence.

Probably, I had too much faith in you.

Tmr

-sch till 1.30

-bell rings and heads for shopping(at least it's a comfort)

Till then =)