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Date : Thursday, October 22, 2009
Time : 6:11 PM Title :  zeeeeee--bra! 
Once a reality, now a dream.
and I could never express my frustrations, simply no one bothered to listen.
not even my closest friends.
allow me to vent ittttt.
The nightmare befell.
No one knew I was really looking forward to the trip.
No one knew how eager I was to take a break from all that has happened.
No one knew I longed for this family trip.
No one knew I wanted sooooooooooo much to go.
No one knew I was struggling in the inside for these past 2 weeks, everyday.
with all the results coming in, there was no time for me to moan.
however much , no one knew that I took your words for real.
hey c'mon, you think it's nice hearing people calling you a failure, scoring a zero for a section?
did you ever realised how tough mentally is it for me to sit beside you?
I may be kind on the outside, but that does not mean you should not take my feelings for granted.
hey although I don't do as well as the 2 of you, but there's no neccessity for you guys to shout,
across me, asking how to solve this and that.
heyhey!!!! I am not inhuman. I am not transparent, mind you.
You know you know, you make me feel like a complete failure.
You make me feel I'm worthless, that i was so incompetent that I couldn't even solve a basic question!
You make me wonder if i was indirectly stupid.
hey, who are you to judge me just when I start asking you questions, which sound simply easy
to you? It's simple to you, but to me, it requires a while to digest.
and yes, you make me feel really bad, that almost everytime you start asking across me,
you make me start questioning myself if i was stupid, that's why i was not at your level.
I am really very sad sad sad sad sad by your actions, and I know it's impossible if I told you
how I thought.
and that no one understood how much I suffered deep within.
and you know, I don't know what to say.
it's not my fault that I booked it on the 27th yeah?
it's really your fault by releasing to the population that school will end on the 23rd.
and now, you threaten saying you wil not approve me of leaving.
and yes, teacher you did not say right in advance that there was a bio practical
during the november period.
now, every hope has been dashed, dashed by the carelessness of youuuuu all.
you never knew how much this long-awaited trip meant to me.
it is not just a shopping trip or what to me.
it is going to be an opportunity for me to recharge myself, and start planning for
the upcoming year.
I know eventually, no one has got to be blamed , perhaps I just have to put the blame
on myself, for hoping and wanting too much.
yeap, and yes, you people are soo busy with all the happenings that you have no time
to hear me yeah?
that even my good friend is too tight up with her worries.
I promise that I would be a listening ear to my friends whenever you guys feel down.
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